I'm pretty scared-it's the emo-itis again

That feeling is back again...what I blogged about last.  It's definitely NOT depression.  Tonight I feel scared and sad and it's really creepy.  Sometimes really bad for a few minutes to the point of tears.  Almost like something terrible is going to happen.  It's like:

Lacrimosa dies illa       That day of tears and mourning

Qurisurgent ex favilla     From When ashes shall arise

Judicandus homo reus  All humanity to be juged

Huic ergo parce Deus.  Spare us your mercy oh Lord.

-Mozart.

a total of all of my "symptoms"

1.  having to pause and breathe really deep or else I'll get nausia.  Some times rocking back and forth helps

2.  moments where I can't concerntrate on ANY ONE THING

3.  sudden fear, sadness, loneliness, depression- sometimes a great deal in a few seconds and then it fades for a while and then gets intense.

It's not an anxiety attack or stress.  It comes usually after a great day our a fun activity.  It think I'm going to try to talk to someone-but who?  Hmmm...I have absolutely no idea.  My parents would just pray for me and leave it at that.  What kind of doctor deals with this stuff?  ...or conselor?  Ugh.

Depression Test

Depression is one of the most prevalent and serious mental illnesses in the world today. Approximately one in four women and one in eight men experience at least one bout of depression in their lifetime. Depression is a biological illness, one that often has a devastating impact on behavior, thoughts and feelings. Although depression can be triggered or worsened by specific events or problems as well as depressive thought patterns and personality traits, medical research has shown that it occurs as a result of a chemical imbalance in the brain. Almost every one of us has, at one point or another, experienced feelings of unhappiness, "a blue mood" that could be associated with a disruptive life event - but true depression entails a pervasive feeling of sadness that impairs our general functioning and lasts for more than two weeks.

Snapshot Report Worry about Judgment of Others  63 When you experience a setback or problem in your life, one of the issues on your mind is what other people will think. You may believe that others take pleasure in your problems, that they feel sorry for you, or that they are otherwise judgmental of you. Unfortunately, this attitude can lead you to feel worse about your problems than you need to. It also means that you may be less likely to seek comfort from others when you are in emotional pain.

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