1 post tagged “depressing”

I don't know what it is; no matter what I do I have this painful lonliness in my chest.  Especially after doing something great.  I've ignored it for at least a week, now, but it's getting worse.  I've done some research:

Symptoms of depression include:

• Trouble sleeping or excessive sleeping
• A dramatic change in appetite, often with weight gain or loss
• Fatigue and lack of energy
• Feelings of worthlessness, self-hate, and inappropriate guilt
• Extreme difficulty concentrating
• Agitation, restlessness, and irritability
• Inactivity and withdrawal from usual activities
• Feelings of hopelessness and helplessness
• Recurring thoughts of death or suicide

I've got seven, but I've always been fascinated with death.  It's like I look at someone happy and then it hurts.  I do something fun, but it doesn't go away and gets worse afterwards-probably because it's over.  Even reading gives me this feeling.  Maybe it is just loneliness.  I have it now because I feel like a dork-blogging about my emotions.  Who DOES  that?  Besides Taylor, that is. 

	Anxiety Index
Your score = 83

According to your score on the Anxiety Test, you are quite anxious - more so than most people around you. Your anxiety seems to have become problematic in your day-to-day life. It could be holding you back from doing necessary things, putting a damper on experiences that have the potential to be wonderful, or causing some problems in your relationships. The good news, though, is that you can change. Step one on the road to recovery is realizing that suffering from anxiety is not your fault. And know that you are not alone - a large percentage of people suffer from various degrees of anxiety. Consider talking to a professional who can help you get over your anxious feelings.

1.  I'm still doing necessary things(unless you count a few things)

2. yes the second is true.

3. the people around me (who I scare most) know I'm insaine with my moods- that's just me, doesn't count.

4. I don't have great relationships-that's why I'm lonely.  Nobody knows me at all.

This is how I feel-somewhat:

I'm Not Okay (I Promise), Pt. 2

And all of these...

It's also like when I try to be happy or see hapiness I feel sad and when I try to think of why I'm so sad I'm happy.

these are the main symptoms of emo-itis.