5 posts tagged “summer”

I'm serious.  Even our house visitor is in hers-we told her and she had pj's on her like that.  We are all doing lazy things like watching dvds and catching up with Queen Bees and Degrassi on www.the-n.com.  I've finished Girls' Poker Night by Jill A. Davis and started reading Adios To My Old Life by Caridad Ferrer after that it's The Portrait Of A Lady by Henry James.  Yep.  Home is a really cozy place.

Plans

I finally convinced my dad and he said we can pick up that guitar friday, which is great because I think Nicky is as impatient as I am. Tomorrow it's back to the Memphis Zoo because my nieces liked it so much and apres ca a church choir rehearsal.  I know, me?  Singing about stories that seem like fairy tales to me while everyone else in the room believes it and might even feel understood by it?  My youth choir is short a few people.  Which reminds me that a few days ago I put in an application for Living Waters.  I wouldn't mind working there.  And somehow I have the feeling I said I'd call someone.  Too bad I lied. 

School

I cringe when I hear the words back, to and school.  I don't want to go and I'm not ready.  Mentally or physically because

A) I am not prepared to go back to running out of time on long assignments, waking up at five, and seeing my homeroom teacher, Mr. Bargery

B) I don't even feel like school shopping and I can't until my nieces leave.  Honestly, last year they visited right after I'd gone shopping and stole most of my new clothes on the day we dropped them off home.  Their mom didn't care.  Also I just don't want to hunt for good stores.  Maybe I can do this online? 

I've got to go do something to get this off my mind now, that's how much I don't want to go back.

I've survived about three weeks without a bad emo-itis attack!!!  And to celebrate I adopted a kitten on her way to be put to sleep.  I named her Element.  I'll take a few pictures later.  I am sxcited that she didn't need any training to use the litterbox and I've found a way my dad won't get sick from her.

Aside from that absolutely everything is just dandy.  I just realized I haven't really been socializing much, though.  To fix that I'll find a friend to go see Clue, The Musical with me Friday or Saturday at the Ruffin.

Even my frined who's to be moving isn't leaving anytime soon (but it's funny how they are trying to get out of here quickly, as if someone is after them) because they have to sell their house first.  I've made one new friend and talked to an old one.

Things are just so great-even the weather is happy.  I absolutely love Summer.  Tommorow I'll be at the DMV (in Covington) to get my permit, that is, as long as I can get one of those retarded slips of paper from the school today.

Looks like I've got to go be happy somewhere else!

Do you want to know one of the reasons WHY I HATE orange?  Because It means "constant/steady/NEVER CHANGING" and if you hate it it is supposed to mean you can't STAND BEING BORED.  Well my mom is leaving for California to stay and care for her Grandma for two weeks.  It will be my dad and I.  My dad works from way early in the morning to six in the afternoon (well he gets home around that time) which means I'll be home alone for two weeks. 

this means:

1.  I can't go any where.  because I don't have my liscence (sp?).  No one even lives near me.

2.  I can't do anything.  My house can be so boring.

3.  I can just sit and get online or watch TV...or disturb the neighbors.

But on the bright side I can:

1.  buy a musical instrument and become a musical genius (why, that sounds musical).

2.  knit like a madwoman.

3.  stalk friends (by phone)

4.  try not to go schizophrenic and commit suicide from booming silence (not to make fun of my schizophrenic cousin). 

It could be like house arrest.  Mabye I could watch my neighbors and discover they are actually killers.  come to think of it I am well-acquanted with all of my neighboors except one house.  They DO look really strange and they were the one family that didn't smile or anything while we Christmas carrolled and handed them baked goods (yes, we did that). 

Who knows?  I think I am going to find some friends to hang out with and some really great books.  who knows?  I could have an educational experience????...you educational in the Summer time that's not NERDY at all. 

ugh.  Now I feel like this will be like hybernation or being on a deserted island-with no cannibals.  OHH! What if I get a pet?  Then I wouldn't be bored and I'd feel loved.  Needed.  There is an ad for a rescued cat that needs a home and I love cats... but my dad says he's allergic. 

I'll ask anywho.

I will SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But until then I'll buy books, borrow movies (mine suck-no one watches movies here), learn to play piano/keyboard (we've both), find games I can play by myself, get binoculars and just stock up.

But that would be really cool if one of those places I turned in job applications to would hire me and save me from this summer bummer...okay, I've only turned in one application, but I'M TRYING. 

There has been so much going on lately, but I'll just state what's on my mind now: my To Do list.

1.  Get a Job.  I am going to get a butt load of applications to fill out and then turn in in order to look at my options.  yesterday I asked someone at Dollar General for an application (I'm not picky) and she said you have to be at least eighteen.  This shocked me because I've known people that worked there at seventeen.  I am suspiscious she just doesn't like me, so my friend (who looks WAY older) is going to ask her again and if she gets an application I will get to the bottom of this.

2.  Stay in shape.  Yesterday I walked a good two miles and today I am going to walk more.  I could sooo be a New Yorker-walking is a fun way to just think.

3.  Get a heathly sleep routine.  I have trouble getting to sleep, so I am going to start meditating before bed.  And I am going to arrange my room so I can feel more relaxed.  If I don't, the "aliens"* in the attic will keep me up all night.

*Maybe it's really angels, but either way there are actual footsteps up there at night.  And in the day.  It gets creepy.  Like just last night I was on the phone when I heard someone come into my room ( you know that high pitched sound and the feeling?)  And my house phone clicked off for no reason.  I called my buddy back and I heard those clicking noises like on the baby monitor on Signs...wait that wasn't relevant.  Oh well.

4.  Knit presents for Aaron and Ashley for a house warming gift.  My sister is in her house in Germany, so I am giving them homemade house warming gifts. 

5.  Study for the ACT.  In small daily measurements, I'll practice.  Today I am using the practice booklet and I'll time myself.  I've also got to learn the basics of trigonometry.  Whatever that is.

6.  Get my permit (I keep on putting this one on hold- A LOT  of things come up).  More studying, 'tis all.

Oh, and that emo-itis?  Still have it.  Last "Occurrance" was yesterday.  It was bad.  A friend sad it sounded like depression, but I don't think so(I still have motivation).  It's still scary, but I've been living with it.

Well it's off walking before I get too tired.  If you're commenting, tell me your summer goals.

Everyone is annoyed with me just as much as I am vexed with them.  I have my reasons, but I won't share this list-it would seem...disrespectful? No...ah, what's the word?  Anywho, here is what I mean.  This is me walking into my living room with my sister on the couch with her laptop sharing her Christian Rap with our mom.  She is loving it (she loves all music).  I get glares because I am so annoying at times like these. 

I know my camera is dark; I am praying for a new one.  Anywho, those are the wonderful flowers Aaron and Ashley gave me.  I thought I might share them with you, reader.  That is me with my unimpressed face, my jailbird shirt, and oversized hot pink goofy glasses on-oh and the emo bangs.  the top of my computer desk with all of my candles lit. 

I cannot wait until I go camping next Saturday.  Something inside me just wants to be out at night-and not just any night-a beutiful one.  I'd better do so before global warming ruins all the nights to come. The moon is out, too.

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<What I have in mind is something like this.  Since I can't exactly do that tonight, I think I'll use my rain maker thingie with nature sounds.  It has a summer night button.  I'll turn off all of my electricity and stare out of my huge window at the moon-I don't usually get to see it throught my window.  And it is so round and big tonight. 

This doesn't really sound like me, but it is making me happy right now.  it could be my sleepyness typing.  Or all that sugar I had a few hours ago.

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<I feel sort of like that.

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so now I am going to go be happy and calm and fresh somewhere else.  Next time!